Year 2000, I woke up with a sharp pain in my left breast.
I felt the breast, and there was a lump moving
I was S.C.A.R.E.D
I couldn’t wait for daybreak
I was one of the first to get to the university health centre
My breasts were examined.
The doctor said the lump is movable
That it’s not cancerous but I have to get it out
I didn’t get it out until February, 2015
You want to know what took me that long?
I was scared
Scared that once my breast is opened, I will die
I was even praying away the lumps
I was praying amiss
Rather than pray for a successful surgery, I was praying for lumps to disappear.
I have a one-inch scar on my left breast
Girlfriends seeing it for the first time always think it’s a tattoo.
The day I went for my histology result was the scariest day of my life
I was thinking of coffins at one point.
Will it be brown or white?
I started thinking of wigs
I was scared shitless
It turned out to be truly benign
I was jubilant
It was simply a mass of fatty tissues.
And I regretted not removing it earlier.
Removing it earlier meant the scar should be invisible by now.
Yesterday was tagged “No Bra Day ”
It’s not a day for releasing breasts and walking around with those beautiful jumping up and down
How regularly do you check your breasts?
I’ve checked mine like 5 times today
I’m always looking at mine in the mirror
Lifting them and admiring them
And blessing God these two didn’t kill me.
I have a friend who has removed both breasts
I still can’t explain how I felt the day she showed me both
She’s been in remission for 5 years now
My prayers and support are with her and others in similar situation.
A true account by Gloria Agbaosi